"I want to help people" ~Patch Adams

Kat Von D. such an inspiration to me.
Watching L.A. Ink right now, just amazed at the work she does. And Corey Miller is absolutely amazing as well. I really hope to get some tattoos done by them. I aspire to be a great tattoo artist too, as good as them, its a stretch but i know that if i work at it, it could happen.
I wish I could interview her and ask how she became so amazing. Its really unfortunate that she doesnt allow apprenticeships at her shop though. Not like I'd get in at 17 years old. Speaking of which, its my birthday next month, on the 11th. Then I'll be 17. I cant wait. Three things I want for my birthday: 1. a car 2. a tattoo gun/kit 3. a trip to the beach
that's literally all I want. Regrettably, I'm not getting any of those. Although, my friend Fallon wants her and I to go on a "road trip" to Myrtle Beach. That would be sooo amazing because I haven't been there in like 8 or 9 years, maybe more. I miss it there.
Anywho. Tomorrow/today/tonight I'm going to see Reel Big Fish for free! I might be able to meet them but I'm not sure if I can yet. You see, my dads best friends brother-in-law owns this club/venue that alot of people play at, and I saw Hanson, and Chiodos there before, and Kate Vogele. I met all of them, it was really cool, well, I spoke to ther guys in Hanson, but we didn't "meet". I wish.
Anyways, Patch Adams is on, and its 2:30am so I'm gonna have to go ;]

oh my gosh.

check out how megan fox looked when she was in grade school...
hahaha thats really funny. but its almost inspirational, like, i could possibly become attractive eventually lol. I'm so incredibly jealous of her, she is so gorgeous and isnt the best actress but her good looks have gotten her to where she wants to be. I like the fact that shes becoming the "new angelina jolie" i think its great, angelina needs to chill out. shes beginning to resemble joan crawford, shes just losing it. And dont even get me started on kristen stewart and robert pattinson. Theyre adorable together and theyre becoming the new brangelina, fer sure.
I totally just realized the other day like, it is so much better to gossip about celebrities rather than people I know. It doesnt hurt anyone, cause theyll never know what I say, and I can say whatever I want. The only downfall is, I sound stupid because I dont know the celebrities personally or anything. I like to feel like I do, my friends think I'm weird for how into movies I get and how I talk about the actors in the movie, I feel like I can tell alot from the people just from body language and the ways they talk at red carpet things and in candid pictures. maybe its just a weird thing I have, but inside, theyre all people just like you and me.. obviously.
I knew it, I'm becoming addicted to blogging. about just dumb things too, like movies and celebrities and stuff. but i dont know.
its almost 1:30 am and i want so badly to be carrie bradshaw, typing up some eloquently written story up in her classy apartment, about some crazy romantic encounter she just had with a gorgeous but quirky guy, or a night out with the girls. Or i wish to be like Samantha, i wish i could be in one of her scandalous relationships right now haha, i dont really want to be like charlotte, and especially not like miranda because shes a total bitch and never does anything right. sex and the city is definitly one of the best shows ever on television.
maybe the only reason i want to start a blog is to get noticed. or to be able to sit up at 2 am writing and thinking that some girl my age in california living the life i want to live, or some guy in boston is reading this thinking, wow that girl thinks about the same things i do, or anything like that, just giving meaning, or showing other people, they arent the only ones, thats what i feel like i need to do.

"Hung"

new favorite show, "hung" is about an attractive middle aged guy [played by Thomas Jane] who is a former high school sports legend turned middle-aged high school basketball coach that finds a way to benefit from his biggest asset... his dick.
just my kind of show ;] so far its great, kind of sad but in a funny way. and looking at a sexy guy for 45 minutes is totally one of my favorite pass times hah. but now i'm left wondering if he really is "physically gifted" in real life lol. omg they almost just showed it. dammit. ugh the woman he slept with is so ugly. shes funny though.
so last night we had a party for the fourth of july, and it was pretty great, i got messed up like twice, and when i was.. i had no idea what i was saying or doing, and my best guy friend, seth, was over and i kind of told him im jealous of the girl he likes, it was awkward but the rest of the night turned out good. then this morning my dad comes in and says "now i want you to go downstairs and take all the beer bottles that you and your friends drank out of the garbage can and put them out in the recycling. and you wont get to use the car for the rest of the summer." when he said that i basically pissed myself. immediately i was like "it wasnt me! it was maddie! n her friends" [maddie is my 15 year old sister] and once she fessed up to it, he didnt do a damn thing to her, he didnt punish her or anything, and he was going to take the car away from me for the summer. its rediculous.
so i have this huge problem of my parents treating me way different than my sister, like they are more leaniant [idk how to spell it] with her rather than me. they think im such a badass when in reality shes worse than i am. they only think that because i tell them everything i do, and i trust them to trust me because i dont usually lie, but now they just use all of it against me, and my sister doesnt tell them anything and shes way worse than me, its just like i dont know what to do, whenever i tell them theyre being unfair they call me selfish and rediculous. anyways, if anyone knows what im going through or has advice, help me out pleasee :]