Life is getting tougher and tougher with each year of my life. I just turned 17 two days ago, and since then things automatically suck. I mean sure, its cool that when guys ask how old I am, I can say17, instead of 16, which sounds so young to me. Anyways, the greg thing.. yeah relationships are harder than i even know, which is really lame. Its like really hard to trust him when he doesn't give me straight answers and isn't ever serious. But now I'm thinking that since this is just a silly high school relationship and I shouldnt worry about him at all, I should just not give a shit, and enjoy the fact that I'm with someone who I can be happy with. And then I have the contradicting factor of me not being happy with him sometimes.
I also have this close guy friend that I've been falling for, fer like everr. My sister thinks he likes me because she believes she has "the power to see auras" and she says that whenever im with him and I talk about greg, he gets a jealous aura lol. But idk I'd like to go out with my guy friend but I still dont believe he likes me.
When i started the "Never Date Kate" Blog.. my veiws on having a boyfriend were simple, just don't date, and don't suffer. I should have sticked to it, but like I really fell for greg and now I have this problem.
Has anyone ever done any drugs? Well I've experimented, not with anything scary or serious, but something that like millions of people in america do, and it's made me think so much more than I already do, and it scares me sometimes because I think way too deeply into things. And its changing the way I think of this and remember them. I promise its not acid, shrooms, cocaine, crack, heroine, meth or anything like that. But like I was doing so well when I stopped smoking and now I got back into it, and I'm kind of addicted again, I've been like wasted the past 4 days, it's exausting and I'm worried that I'm self medicating kind of like what my mother does with alcohol.
Anyones parents ever get divorced? Yep, along with my boyfriend being weird/having relationship problems, dealing with addictions, getting my phone taken away and being jobless, my parents are getting a divorce. COOL. Like I have no idea where I'm going to live when they split, and I hope I can get into college and apprentice for a tattoo artist. But you know, life doesn't always work out the way you want, which is reality and I need to realize that, but work my ass off to make my life way worth living.
Sorry this was just a lame entry, but I felt the need to vent, and maybe get some good feedback from people, something different than the stuff my friends tell me.
